What happens when a devout atheist trying to debunk Christianity becomes the frontman of a Christian metal band?
In Episode 43 of Deformed Theology, we sit down with Michael Felker, lead vocalist of Convictions, to hear his powerful testimony — from aggressive atheism and suicidal ideation to radical faith in Jesus Christ.
Michael shares:
• Growing up non-religious and embracing atheism
• Debating Christians and trying to dismantle faith
• Wrestling with depression and suicidal thoughts
• The moment he opened a Bible and prayed, “God, if you’re real…”
• How God met him in the middle of darkness
• Church hurt and abuse within Christian spaces
• Writing heavy music about real suffering
• What it means to create “aggressive worship”
• When God felt silent during a life-threatening cancer diagnosis
• Why Christian metal is ministry
This is not a sanitized testimony.
This is about doubt.
About anger.
About silence.
About wrestling with God.
And about discovering that Jesus was there the whole time.
Whether you’re:
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Deconstructing your faith
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Wrestling with church hurt
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Curious about Christian metal
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Struggling with depression
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Or wondering if God is real
This conversation is for you.
Michael’s story reminds us that faith isn’t fragile — and God is not afraid of our hardest questions.
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